passed more tissues than meds today

So many tears at work.

I thought for sure they’d come after me too, hitting me hard as I drove home from the hospital this evening, but they never showed.

Instead, just images.

A girl that couldn’t have been any older than me down the hall, weeping outside of her mother’s room into her sister’s arms, after receiving such heavy, gut churning news I couldn’t ever fathom having to hear myself.

My patient. His wife. A picture of them getting married, on the beach - not two, three years old. Could you even imagine? Living years of your life, getting married, having kids… only to encounter a truer, perhaps more authentic love in your 50’s, 60’s - to meet that person, fall in love, remarry, and then less than a year later, find out one of the two of you has cancer? With what the docs deem a poor prognosis?

I can’t

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you’ve got me wrapped around your finger

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"Sometimes you’re 23 and standing in the kitchen of your house making breakfast and brewing coffee and listening to music that for some reason is really getting to your heart. You’re just standing there thinking about going to work and picking up your dry cleaning. And also more exciting things like books you’re reading and trips you plan on taking and relationships that are springing into existence. Or fading from your memory, which is far less exciting. And suddenly you just don’t feel at home in your skin or in your house and you just want home but “Mom’s” probably wouldn’t feel like home anymore either. There used to be the comfort of a number in your phone and ears that listened everyday and arms that were never for anyone else, but just to calm you down when you started feeling trapped in a five-minute period where nostalgia is too much and thoughts of this person you are feel foreign. When you realize that you’ll never be this young again but this is the first time you’ve ever been this old. When you can’t remember how you got from sixteen to here and all the same feel like sixteen is just as much of a stranger to you now. The song is over. The coffee’s done. You’re going to breathe in and out. You’re going to be fine in about five minutes."

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Well shit. It’s not just me.

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Will always reblog.

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polople:

do you ever start writing a text post and halfway through you’re just like “nah” 

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because b&w filters make me feel pretty

because b&w filters make me feel pretty

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Normally I’m not one for gift cards (I think it sucks the fun right out of gift giving) but I’m not going to lie, having a Starbucks giftcard from Michael’s sister for my birthday’s been pretty fabulous - especially considering the time of year. It’s for $25, meaning I get five seasonal drinks I’d otherwise feel guilty spending money on at five dollars a pop for FREE! Yay!

Normally I’m not one for gift cards (I think it sucks the fun right out of gift giving) but I’m not going to lie, having a Starbucks giftcard from Michael’s sister for my birthday’s been pretty fabulous - especially considering the time of year. It’s for $25, meaning I get five seasonal drinks I’d otherwise feel guilty spending money on at five dollars a pop for FREE! Yay!

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she likes me, I promise

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one sleepy little angel
crab rangoon to die for
a current obsession

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and when the ground falls from beneath our feet
and when the long days bring no relief
I will be your heart, I will be your heart
if you will be mine

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+feels

stumbling in from work half asleep this morning and discovering orchids on our kitchen table and the sweetest card from my love

the smile on my nephew’s face when he saw me unexpectedly from the bottom of the stairs earlier today, and the excitement that proceeded as he made his way step by step up into my arms

hugging my sister on her birthday

a call from my dad as he sat in a park

the amusement hiding a cheeto in an easter egg brings a 17 month old

and even better, the thrill that fills a young soul after learning how to high-five

chinese food and a good flick surrounded by family

how cute my mom looks in her nightgown,

and grown up my 16 year old brother looks in his work clothes

the significance in my stepdad’s sweet tooth

the realization of how long it’d been since I’d noticed the stars until tonight, as I was leaving my mom’s

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less than three hours 🙌

less than three hours 🙌

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Today,

It’s Monday, and I’m 24 years old.

Kissed Michael goodbye before he went to work, grabbed lunch with a good friend, and I find that as I’m getting ready to leave for work tonight myself, today’s just any other day - and that, that’s really okay.

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bedroompop:

Bahamas | Lost In The Light

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embracing fall with open arms this morning with firsts of the season in both hands: chai tea latte in one, and a beauty of a honey crisp in the other

embracing fall with open arms this morning with firsts of the season in both hands: chai tea latte in one, and a beauty of a honey crisp in the other

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